And even if I don’t…MY Week in Review:

I did something today that I didn’t think I was going to do.  I had the always fun internal battle to do or not to do it…THAT is the question.  I follow a blog and they were expanding their blog family to those of us at the beginning of our journey.   I thought, “how cool is this, I can totally do that.”  Well, the negative hand in my life slapped me square in the face and said, “are you stupid….putting yourself out there like that, showing people you have faults and that you are FAT!  OH and that you sometime slack off in the blogging department.” 

GEEEZ sometimes I wish my optimistic side and pessimistic side could square off.  I seriously want to kick my own ass; I’m so annoying sometimes. 

After going back and forth I figured I had nothing to lose and something to gain.  I took a step to let the world see who I am and I am going to commit myself to something that could really benefit me in the long run.  Not to mention how great it will feel to get the support and maybe some compliments that these bloggers get on how amazing they look.    I want to be a part of that.  In a small way I already am and that’s pretty awesome.  I put my actual weight on here which was a big step for me.  This feeling I have right now is totally amazing because I’m charged and so wanting to do this.  Even if I don’t make into the family of this blog I still have mine and my little list of followers.   I will reach out to the people in my life for support when I need it because they have always been there and I know they will continue to be.

I’ll update everyone when I know the outcome….

                So, this week was just interesting.  I had an eye appointment Monday and found out that my Thyroid issue may also be causing my eye problems.  It’s bad enough that it’s a small part of the depression and my ever widening RUMP but it’s now potentially making me blind.  GREAAAAAAAT.   I was informed that I’m not a good candidate for contacts.  E.P.H. (my shortened version of EFF as in the EFF word..I just say the letters E.P.H because when you say EPH like in stEPHanie it sounds like EFF). I did get my updated prescription though and I'll be venturing out to get my new specks.  I decided since I'm going to have them for the rest of my life I'm going to get a really nice pair that makes me look purdy.  Tuesday and Wednesday were pretty uneventful.  Thursday I got my hair dyed a lovely black and green color.  The green stained my pillow case and my husband wasn't too happy about that.  OH well, hair coloring is therapeutic for me.

                 This morning I sent off my letter to the blog.  I hope they get it and seriously consider me.  If not, it's all good.  I stopped off at a Running Shoe store near my house and picked of my new pair of sneakers.  I really lucked because they were on sale.  I didn't get the ones I wanted but I got the same style.  They will serve an amazing purpose.  Now, I just need to get my husband some so he can come with me and keep my company.  We also need to bring our Maggie Dog home.  (Anyone have a spare $300 we can borrow).  This weekend should be pretty quiet.  We don't have any plans as far.  I talked with an friend about the gym he goes to and I am going to look into joining.  I know I want my walk on but I will also need significant weight training.  I need to hit up the grocery store and get the fixins for better meals.  I started collecting healthier meal plans I'm hoping the Mr will like.  He's become so picky lately it's hard to know what I can fix that he will eat.

That's all for now.  The Mr isn't hungry so I'm just going to eat my salad and call it a night.